This happened.

2017 happened. I honestly can't decide if this year is amazing or absolute shit. Aside from this blog being born with my very own domain, I spent the first quarter of my year, trying to survive school by setting my alarm for every 15 minutes until it was time to wake up, and drag myself out of bed. The bad days were over until I finally got the courage to speak out and tell my parents that I'm losing my sanity and I don't want to wake up miserable again. I quit school. And that was the best decision that I've made. 

People's Paradise

In lieu of wet and cold Salzburg photos, I am (late) posting one of my beach trips with my best friend Jade. This was really not spontaneous but it was definitely unplanned.

Wow, that did not make any sense at all. Lol.

Okay, let me explain. It wasn't spontaneous in the sense that the idea didn't spring to our minds that morning and we decided to get on with it. Months before I went home, we were really planning on going out of town - just the two of us - for some good old bonding. It was just that we had no idea where to go. Finally, we talked about it over Messenger, decided when to go, but still never got to decide where to go.

Until the night of September 24, we were still arguing and did not seem to have a well polished plan. "Should we go to Guimaras? Ok but where in Guimaras? Tatlong Pulo? Or we can go to Roxas! No? What about Boracay? Still no? Okay te sige linte ma Villa Baybay nalang ta ah!" Hahahahahahahaha we are an exquisite waste of time to each other sometimes.

Basta, let's go. Anywhere. To any beach!

This time, I lost.

Our time, was something of our own. And that time ran out.
We had our run. This time, I lost.

xo, yaniee

This is where I leave you.

People tend to write a lot about their feelings of loneliness, anguish, despair, melancholy, nostalgia, etc. because it is always easy for some to let out their frustration into words. It is always convenient to either type or write words you cannot say to a person's face.

Mixtape Monday: Pity Party

Back to my Mixtape Monday series because my heart  head's probably close to exploding since I've been listening to these songs on repeat just to feed my wounded ego. LOL

Life Lately: Autumn Mood

 I have a love and hate relationship with the cold weather.

Well, more on hate because I obviously grew up in a tropical country where the only seasons I knew were wet and dry, and where people don't really check and dress according to the temperature or weather forecast.

You are not alone.

Just a few ramblings I needed to get out of my system.

Fuck you for breaking my heart.

Sometimes, my emotions tend to overflow and last night was one of those nights where I somewhat can't take it all in any longer. I was listening to my pity party playlist, subtly crying myself to sleep (no shame) and suddenly, I feel like I wanted to explode. I stopped myself, took out my phone and typed on my Notes instead. Here it is. Just another breakdown from my reverie.

Birthday Blog: Wait, I'm 29?!

So I turned 29, last September 18 - three weeks ago. Last year in my 20s and I totally didn't expect it will leave me with so much nostalgia up to now.

I hate ü, I love ü

"You chose him."
"Yeah. That is because I know you will never choose me."

What a way to start our story.

Gigantes Islands

I actually thought this planned getaway won't push through because it was raining the whole week prior to this trip. But thank goodness the heavens listened to me and gave me a wonderful advanced birthday gift: a chance to go to the beach with my friends, and a sunny weather. Lol.


Just a quick blog update because I wasn't really planning on looking over my computer screen during my entire stay here. After waiting for so damn long, and keeping my excitement to myself, I can finally say it:

Life Lately

Stranger Danger.

My mornings continue to turn into nights as I allow myself to be engrossed with the idea of having you in my life. No matter how far-fetched it may seem, how unfathomable the chances are, and how ridiculous this concept of us in my mind, I can't help it. 

Shit. What have I gotten myself into?

How to really know someone : Vol II

Here's another round of How To Really Know Someone.

Bike Exhibit

Last February, I went to Tulln, a town in the lower state of Austria, together with my Ninang from Saalfelden and her daughter, Stephanie. Stephanie is two years younger than me and boy, this girl has so much fascination with motorbikes. In fact, she drives one herself and if I remembered right, the one she has now is the Kawasaki Ninja 250 RR which (for me) is massive and I cannot even imagine how she can handle riding it.


Gaisberg is one of the mountains that you will easily recognize because it has the huge transmitter or antenna of ORF -- the largest media group in TV, radio, and web here in Salzburg. My mom and I decided to go there last June 19 just to relax for a bit since we usually hit the malls during our free time. 

How to really know someone : Vol I

I wanted to update this blog so much, but unfortunately, I just don't know what to write about. A few days ago, I was blog hopping and I saw a few bloggers who are doing this series called How To Really Know Someone and I like that this piqued my interest and allowed me to think about my answers on these certain questions or situations. The list is over a hundred and I decided to pick out random ones to answer.

Großglockner Hoch Alpenstraße

* A little information before anything else:  ß is read as letter S and not B. When capitalized, it is written as SS. Also, my title post is just the german translation of  high alpine road.


Last Saturday, I got a bit bored so I went out and took a walk at Linzergasse, one of the most popular streets with a lot of quaint handicraft shops, restaurants, and hostels here in Salzburg.

In Denim (of) Love

Grabe on a scale of 1 to Yaniee, how corny can you get with your puns? HAHAHA. K. These were taken in two of probably my not-so-secret "favorite" parts of the Mirabell Garden. The Heckentheater  and the Zwergerlgarten. I like going here just because this mini-maze isn't flocking with tourists. Don't get me wrong: MIRABELL GARDEN is AMAZING as it is considered one of the most beautiful Baroque gardens of Europe. That's just my anti-social self, talking because I sometimes shy myself away from crowds, though I know I can always pretend to be a tourist, pose and try to get my photo taken. Nobody will know I've been here a gazillion times anyway. An exaggeration, of course. Maybe a million times lang. Charrr.

Bedroom Talk

She turned around to face him, and asked casually, "How did you know you love me?"

Life Update: Quitting

 *Note: I just want you to know that this is the second time I am writing this blog because the first time I did, I was smart enough to type on Notepad, ate my dinner, left my laptop alone, and didn’t realize it re-started on its own. Perfect. So now I am frustrated while typing this because I can’t seem to remember what I wrote. But I will try to make it as good as my original one. So here goes...

Mixtape Monday: Coffee and Cigarettes

Day 1 and first Monday of the month of May. Here's a playlist for y'all. Why Coffee and Cigarettes? My favorite from this set, Clara Benin's voice is so soothing to the ears and has this perfect cafe vibe/feel to it. So I instantly thought of "coffee". And what do people usually pair their coffee with? Cigarettes of course. No? Or teka wait. Newspaper ba dapat? Pandesal? Char. Lol. I just thought it was cool to name it like that. And OH!!! I just remembered now that EWWM also had a playlist series named like this too! I've always loved Ellie's Mixtapes! I miss it.

Am I in love?

One last time.

Photo by: Von

Listen. I am not here to sulk at my mistakes in the past years. Even though before, it still haunts me during random times of the day, like on a sunny morning in June, or seeing the word “love” used as an endearment on some Facebook status. Finding the letters he sent that I’ve kept inside my suitcase while I was busy tucking in my sweaters because we were getting ready for summer. Also seeing the book he gave me, where we starred. Those days where he'd be all over telling me songs of The Smiths, or Empire of the Sun's Without You. Where everything I do is "kyot kyot" and where he would tell me he doesn't need anyone else cos he found his home in me. Where he said, "I don't have time for games anymore". Where he swore to the universe that it's time he gets serious and I'm going to be his last relationship, hence, he proposed. Fuck, the ring. Do not forget the ring he gave matched with sweet words said, but then, never actually committed to the relationship, only on the idea of it. Seeing and remembering, made me shrug it all off because it actually does not feel like a loss. It has been so long since the last time I ever thought about the “happy” moments that we had, and now I can’t vaguely remember what it’s like to have an affection for someone like him, who once made me look forward to the future with certainty, but only left with nothing more than just remains of the vast universe he described, words forming into stars turning into a new world of our own.

Mixtape Monday: Chill

I (kind of) hate the word chill. But there is no other way that I can describe these set of songs I listen to, whenever I need to get something off my mind. Like the type where I can zone out and feel things other than be stressed. 

Steal my sunshine.

The next few months will be hectic for me and even by just thinking about it makes my knees go weak and my heart sort of panics because I honestly have no idea how to survive it. But I just try to focus, and allow myself to go and grow with the flow. 

A day in Wien.

Today was very interesting. We went to the University of Vienna (previously known as Vienna General Hospital) and to Narrenturm (Fool's Tower), located just near the campus, which used to be Europe's oldest accommodation for mental patients during the 19th century. I had to google that while we were on the train because I honestly had no idea what that is. 

Look at your choices.

The amount of times I've talked, and thought about choices and making them is countless. I've gotten a lot of encouragements, and discouragements based on those that I made, and I am honestly knackered at the thought of the wrong ones I did and regretted, or the ones I've kept on doing just because I had to.

Begin again

I have arrived. Charot. Lol. I have been contemplating since last year on what platform to use for my new blog and after months of thinking about it, weighing pros and cons, I finally decided to stay with Blogspot. Admittedly, I also made a Wordpress account, but never got to use it well because I am more comfortable here, and how this works. But of course! I've been with Blogger since 2012 and I just hid my old blog because I figured I grew old, and grew up. Lol.

The Sunday Currently

I have been browsing random blogs for the past few days and I found ones that really piqued my interest because their blogs have a really nice content – of their travels, beauty reviews, and everything in between. Also, the pretty pictures of places from home makes me miss it so much! And then one thing made me think: Do they ever run out of things to write about? For some, maybe no, because they have a lot going on with their life. But I also believe that even though you have a lot going on,  there will be days where you won’t know what to blog about. That is why I think most bloggers find these prompts so interesting because it allows them to think of things to write about. Started by siddathornton, here I am jumping into the bandwagon of the The Sunday Currently club.


In every day of our separate lives, know that I am always, 
always looking forward to waking up one day, with you by my side.


I am the type of person who tends to daydream a lot especially when I am alone, which happens to be most of the time. Sometimes, I find myself thinking of certain situations, that I somehow wish would happen to me, and then try to make up dialogues in my head and/or form a short story. An excerpt. That is why I decided to make it a category on my blog, so that I can put my thoughts out here for the world to see. Lol. Actually, I've already written quite a few but lost some of it because I used to just write it over any loose paper I could find so it has the tendency to get lost. But now that I have this blog, I have no reason to lose them. I promise to put it here whenever I have time. In fact, I have one of those I wrote years ago, ready to be posted in a few days.

Mixtape Monday: Taste Rewind

This taste rewind playlist of some sort has been going on for quite a while now on Spotify and I was suddenly inspired to make my own. I've been listening to some of the 90s hits playlist there recently and I must admit that I have a love and hate relationship with it. I love it because these tunes give you such a nostalgic vibe and makes you remember a certain stage in your life, back to where everything was just really simple. And I hate it, because listening to these songs remind me of home and I MISS IT SO MUCH. This has been the longest two years away from home that I've ever been.

3 Years and a dozen

I’ve lived in the Philippines my whole life and never experienced traveling out of the country. And the first time I did, it was to live with my mom, here in Salzburg, Austria. I couldn’t quite believe it. To be honest, I never dreamt of living in Europe. Visit, yes. But live? Never. And boy, do I wonder what was wrong with me for not being able to even just fantasize about it. Lol.

Winter in Salzburg

These photos were taken on the third week of January, back when the town was covered in snow. Though, I am not a fan of the cold weather, I still get excited whenever I see snow fall from the sky. It just gives the place a different kind of beauty. Admittedly, I enjoyed it only for a week and then after that, I ended up complaining how cold (duh) it is. Just sharing with you some photos I took.

Why did I stop blogging?

I like blogging. It makes me want to keep doing things, just so I can remember what happened, or how I feel when that happened. Also, because I want to have a story to tell to my friends through writing about at the end of the day.

I give you my word.

Since I was younger, I’ve kept a lot of diaries. I would always write how my day went, my conversations with my crushes or even the fights I’ve had with my best friends. I came to love writing during the time when I also learned how much I love to read. I was fond of reading Sweet Valley Books since I was 8, and started collecting them at 10. The last time I counted, I’ve had 92 of them – from kids, twins, junior high, high, university, and special editions. (But sadly right now, I have less because I lost some of them.) The love I have to read books, pushed me to dream of actually becoming a writer during my elementary years where I used to tell myself, “Oh I’m going to take journalism when I reach college.”

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