A convertible car and Matcha powder

 It was nighttime, and there’s three of us riding a convertible car. I don’t know where we were headed. I just know we’re in for a ride. One friend of mine is driving, then there’s us, at the backseat. We were happily exchanging silly jokes about each other and singing along random songs playing on the radio. I was happy and scared at the same time. I just don’t exactly know why. But I didn’t seem to care because I was with you. Then out of nowhere, you offered me a Matcha powder. You asked me to take it and help myself. And you told me you’ll have some with me. I looked at you weirdly and you gave me the smile that you always give when you're up to something. But since I trust you, I grinned and took the powder to my mouth. You did the same.

Then I woke up. 

The reverie I had was still so clear in my head that I immediately grabbed my phone and typed everything about it that I could remember. 

Coincidentally, the night before I slept and had this dream, I had a sudden and an overdue realization about something. Something about why do I choose to do things for someone I know who will never ever choose me back. Why do I still allow myself to be the "fun" option? The "no choice" option? The "weekend girl" option? I know it's insanely stupid. And trust me when I say I am well aware of how dense I am. That night, like a shot through my chest, every thing hurts again. 

It has been going on for years, and though it was fun while it lasted, I decided to tell myself to stop. I decided to tell him this has to stop.

For real, this time.

Backseat in a car. Matcha powder. These two are the details that stood out from my dream. And (fun fact) I am fond of researching about my dreams and what they meant. This is what I got:

  • Tea represents harmony, peace, spiritual enlightenment, spiritual awakening, spiritual connection, rejuvenation, refreshment, change and contentment. 
  • Dreaming of drinking green tea means internal cleansing. You are internally a very beautiful person or you are trying to change yourself for good and the others have already started noticing the good in you! (source:
I figured that is the closest meaning I could get about the Matcha powder since it came from green tea leaves as well, right? 

  • To dream that you are driving a car denotes your ambition, your drive and your ability to navigate from one stage of your life to another. Consider how smooth or rough the car ride is. If you are driving the car, then you are taking an active role in the way your life is going. However, if you are the passenger, then you are taking a passive role. If you are in the backseat of the car, then it indicates that you are putting yourself down and are allowing others to take over. This may be a result of low self-esteem or low self-confidence.  Overall, this dream symbol is an indication of your dependence and degree of control you have on your life. (source:)

    I am also amazed with the way my dreams talk to me. Even though most of the time, they do not make complete sense but how they give solid meaning to whatever decisions I make in life will always leave me wondering. Realizing how foolish I was over someone, then dreaming about being a passenger on a car. It's painfully true how I indeed let myself down by enabling my feelings to stupidly control the decisions I make, hence allowing them to somehow take over my life.

    And then deciding to stop? That's where the "tea dream" meaning comes in. :)

    Do you guys also search for certain relevant stuff you remember from your dreams? If no, you should try it. 

    Love, Yaniee

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